Blue, Shaky Flashes

I don't understand.
How do people change so drastically without anyone noticing?
I can't tell if it's my fault for not being observant enough to stop it or just missing a sneaky metamorphesis.

Every single time I think the same person can't hurt me as much as they already did...
they surprise me...

I really want to move away...very, very far away...
So far that no one will remember my existance...and every one else - nothing more than a distant memory.

i want to start over in a better place, surrounded by people who won't continuously hurt me this much...
In solitude...free from these blue, shaky flashes
But I don't think it matters where you go...you can't run away from pain:/
But...you can discover beautiful things...there are so many beautiful things to discover..

I'm just glad to have my friend back home with me:)
I missed her terribly...
Her absense haunted me...knowing that the temporary void that she left behind could've been permanent.
I hope she knows I love her...
I hope I don't annoy her.
I'm sure I do.. ;D

Merry Christmas everyone.
meep